Thursday, 23 December 2010

  • I have to say...

    I'm quite surprised I haven't put on like a gazillion pounds...

    This makes me happy :)

    I'm just going to carry on eating like this until Dec 31st. As soon as we hit January, It's game on (so to speak)

    I have 67lbs to lose in 7 months.

    I'm pretty sure I can do this..

    I just don't want to be completely gross when I go to Malia with the girls...

     

    OH! And come January 1st I'll be moving to Tumblr or Blogspot... not sure which yet... xx

    I hope you all have a fabulous Christmas!! xxxx  

Wednesday, 17 November 2010

  • I was doing great until...

    I got home and saw that I'd put on a pound :(

    Then I ate.

    Then I puked.

    Now I feel like shit. :'(

    And I think I want to cancel my birthday celebrations because I'm too fat to look nice in anything.

    Intake (before I got home): 

    Half a slice of toast with home made jam 85 calories (roughly)

    An apple 47 calories

    Soup 56 calories

    Coke Zero 2 calories.

    After I got home... 2 slices of ham 40 calories each, A packet of plain crisps 145 calories & A glass of juice 3 calories.

    *Edit 8:15pm* 

    She just made me eat dinner. Yuck. 2nd purge of the day :/

    mashed potato 104 calories (roughly)

    Beef Bourguignon 230 calories (roughly)

    HML.

    :(

Tuesday, 16 November 2010

  • Put your knife and fork in the air and step away from the fry up...

    And that's exactly what I did.

    Well, maybe not exactly because that would have looked abit silly. :)

    But when you have a full cooked breakfast staring you in the face, there's only one thing you can do. Lie.

    Another good day though...I lost another 2lbs today.. Just over 4lbs in 2 days :) Not bad.. could be better though. 

    Intake:

    2 biscuits 70 calories each.

    2 cups of black coffee 2.5 calories each

    Cup of soup 56 calories.

    Total: 201 calories.

     

    Note to self: Drink more water!

    x

Sunday, 14 November 2010

  • Three months ago I said I'd try again...

    But now look where I am...  HA. 

    I've lost 3lbs in three months. I haven't been trying.. can you tell?

    Just Binge..Purge..Binge..Purge...

    Lalalaaa.

    So I'm still living at home, I decided not to live in at college. Too weird. BUT I did get the boots I wanted. :D

     

    CW: 190.8 (fucking huuuge)

    So... A checklist...

    College [x]

    Job [x]

    Work Placement [ ]

    Boyfriend [ ]

    Perfection [ ]

     

    Still working on the last three....

     

Wednesday, 18 August 2010

  • Hah, You did what?!

    Feels like home.. Let's keep it going this time, have a little self control girl. ♥

    So four months ago I was a fat fuck up, now I'm even fatter and a little more fucked up. I thought I could eat properly and be happy, apparently not. I just put on like 9lbs :( Fuck my life! So, Now that I've been accepted into another college, and actually picked the one I want to go to I think it's time for a bit of an overhaul. I need to stop drinking so much... I swear my liver is dying.. A week long alcohol binge followed by a 3 day drugs binge isn't good for anyone.. Oh but it was fun! So, No more than 150 calories a day & drink plenty of water. Oh and Vodka & Diet coke if I'm out... 

     

    So...My CW is 193.4lbs (Fucking Ew.) I've been so stressed lately I've eaten like a pig. But, let's start afresh, forget yesterdays mistakes and concentrate on tomorrow's triumphs. Busy day tomorrow, Going into Leam, then into Strat to see the boy ^_^ Ahh... I need to stop being such a slut :) But it's too much fun haha. Pleasure +10, Self respect -10. lol.

    *Edit*

    Going back into Leam instead of Strat to go and see Katy. :)

     

    Job interview next week. Whoop :) I so hope I get it, the money would be nice tbh. Well At least Daddy's got the college fees sorted :) I just need to find £90 a week for accommodation. :S Ahh And I really want those boots!! They may be £270 but soo worth it :o) 

     

    Quote of the day: " Just please don't get cum up my nose" - Hahaha! Funny (drunken) times :)

     

    Good night. ♥

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    • Name: Barbie
    • Birthday: 11/19/1991
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 10/27/2009

About me..x

  • First Name: Barbie
  • Birthdate: 11/19/1991
  • Gender: Female
  • About Me: I'm Lola, I'm 18, 5'3", I was bulimic for three years but went into "recovery" two years ago I've been EDNOS with bulimic tendancies ever since. I hate the guilty feeling that I'm always left with after a binge/purge D: .. I went off track and now I'm back here. Again.

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